a busy day

haizz... today is such a siong day!! actually at first, it was still manageable... but towards the end of the day when the things began to come, i was rushing like mad...



Sometimes i really hate this time of the mth... i really felt that it is so unfair... cos not as if i'm slow... but really... i'm right @ the final back end of the process... i was given all the things so late, yet got to finish them by the end of the day, if not then i got to stay behind... haizz... life is so unfair... yet no one really understands!! i'm beginning to hate my job!!!



sorry... just trying to "destress"... u know i really discover something today... my job requires me to really humble myself... cos i really discover that i know so little... sometimes i can get so proud & refuse to admit i'm wrong, i'm inadequate...


recently i got a new colleague, she is filling up the position that i've been eyeing on... so a part of me was quite "reluntant" to show her the things... and sometimes when she ask a bit more questions, i will be a bit impatient! very bad of me hor... but hor... i suddenly realise that before i can get to that position, there are really so much of things i need to learn!!! my gosh!!!


so u see... God has a better plan than all of us... He knows when we are ready for what... can u imagine the stress i will undergo if i was "push" unto the position i always wanted?! Perhaps it was really better for me... at least now i can just push all the responsibilities away and say "I don't know ah,!!!!" hahaha...