NOKIA N72

see the new photo i've put??? Nice???!!! hee... it is taken by my new HP!!



Yes!!! I bought a new HP!! I know i know... u all gonna say i change again!!!!! ya ya... cos my previous one really CMI liao!!!!



Nice??!!! heee... yES! this is the new N72!!!a pink one!!! Nice right??!! the pink is very gentle... nice... i love it! oh yes... it is NOT 3G by the way... i dun need a 3G anyway... so if u gals like... i dun mind sharing the same phone!! haha... the other color is black... stylish... but i guesss pink is better!!!

a busy day

haizz... today is such a siong day!! actually at first, it was still manageable... but towards the end of the day when the things began to come, i was rushing like mad...



Sometimes i really hate this time of the mth... i really felt that it is so unfair... cos not as if i'm slow... but really... i'm right @ the final back end of the process... i was given all the things so late, yet got to finish them by the end of the day, if not then i got to stay behind... haizz... life is so unfair... yet no one really understands!! i'm beginning to hate my job!!!



sorry... just trying to "destress"... u know i really discover something today... my job requires me to really humble myself... cos i really discover that i know so little... sometimes i can get so proud & refuse to admit i'm wrong, i'm inadequate...


recently i got a new colleague, she is filling up the position that i've been eyeing on... so a part of me was quite "reluntant" to show her the things... and sometimes when she ask a bit more questions, i will be a bit impatient! very bad of me hor... but hor... i suddenly realise that before i can get to that position, there are really so much of things i need to learn!!! my gosh!!!


so u see... God has a better plan than all of us... He knows when we are ready for what... can u imagine the stress i will undergo if i was "push" unto the position i always wanted?! Perhaps it was really better for me... at least now i can just push all the responsibilities away and say "I don't know ah,!!!!" hahaha...

long time no BLOG

haha... ya ya... i know... what excuse do i have not to blog now that i have nothing to do now!?!


ok ok... what have i been doing lately??!!! hmmm... basically i was watching VCDs!!!! i was watching the "green forest, my home"... now showing on chn U...


Nice show... really... ok la... i like this kind of fairy tale like stories la... but which gal doesn't?!!! tell me?!


anyway just "tales" dun really happen in real life... but i will still like to imagine it happening on myself! hahaha...



ok... jokes aside... mth end again... siong!!

Monday

haizz... after the long break from work... going back tmr!!!


Isaiah jio me to sentosa... how i wish i can go... but i know i can't... i bet my table is piling like a mountain, my emails are flooded in the mailbox...


i guess now it is time for me to concentrate back on work liao... wonder how many OTs i will work... seriously i should aim not to work OT... for all various reasons, selfish or non-selfish ones... anyway i guess @ most for the next 2 weeks until end of June, I will just concentrate on work until the mth is over... then it's time to plan for my future.


p/s: so long nvr go exercise... so tmr must go gym either early in morning or during lunch time... (dun care boss! haha..)

Outing

It sure feels good to go out without any burdens!!! hee...


today i had a great day out with my ex-colleagues. Introducing... this is Jane & Hengky, we were the young batch then in our company... hee...

opps... only 1 pic with hengky... haha... cos these pictures taken by Jane... she only sends me those with me... so i lagi prominent cos i'm in pink! haha...


I dun even recall when's my last movie?? hmm... "I not stupid 2" during CNY with all my cousins bah... aiyo... 4-5 mths ago!! Horrible right?! anyway we went Coffee Club @ Hotel Rendevous before our movie...

We went to watch Runaway Vacation.... hahaha... i went without knowing what's the plot! Smart right?! hahaha... anyway not too bad movie la... won't say perfect... but ok la...


initially we wanted to go East Coast for dinner... hee... but after i went to spotlight and walk around, it was quite late... so we ended up @ thomson rd, a japanese resturant... (not so nice... i think my soba wasn't nice lor...)


haizz... the night ended not soo good cos Hengky got a summon for parking along double white line... somemore we saw the TP! alamak... haizz... nvr mind... hengky, dun worry, we'll share the summon with u!!


so long no have fun... it feels good!!!

saturaday night out

a slightly different sat nite i've spent for the past 6 mths... ok ok... i know it is a bit exaggerating... but it is true ok...


normally my saturdays are very standard procedure one... wake up in morning... surf a bit net, play a bit games... then either get ready to go cg or church for ministry, then after ministry/ church svc... head home!! boring huh??? ya lor...



today is quite a standard thing... went for cg, ministry and attended svc as well... afterwhich... instead of home... i headed sembawang!!!



see... me this kind of friend where to find?! go all the way to sembawang to pick my 2 dear friends + my god-daughter for supper @ sembawang??!!! hahaha....



but no matter what... it was a great time of fellowshipping... lots of "crapping" and laughing... isaiah said in his blog abt the "not-so-nice" satay??!! hahaha... "not-so-nice" but free leh!!!! haha... free?! dun tell any1 hor.. that lady who serve us satay still thank us... before we took up our wallets to pay... she just walked away and nvr come back!!! hahaha!!!


anyway in the meantime of crapping... my 2 dear friends, joey's parents tried match-making me again!!! haizz... i got that in the noon from my CGL too!!! hmmm... see la huh!!!



ok... anyway realise joey grown so big!! my gosh... just now saw my photo on kless's blog of me carrying joey on her 1st mth... my gosh... she grown so big!!! aiyo... babies grow very fast!!!

Now... what's NEXT?!

hmm... after a relaxing sleep last nite... no worries, no burdens... now the question is out... what's next?!



this time round, it is really over... of cos there is a paper which i might "ta-bao" la... but then, why worry since it is over?? haizz... whatever the results is... that one wait til later then say la...



what's next?! perhaps i should wait til results are out then ask this????

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






finally it is over!!! exams are over...



ask me how i feel now?! hmmm... i dunno le... a sigh of relief perhaps?! But really... i should "feel" more that this right?? since it is the FINAL exams... so if i cleared all, i finish my 2 years of agony!!! yeah!!! but hor... crossing my fingers la... got 1 paper.. i think might got problem clearing... haizz.. anyway dun think now la...


now all i wanna is LET DOWN MY HAIR!!! hee....

Coin

a coin has 2 sides... depending from which angle we see it...


this is my revelation today... something happened... to many it seems unfortunate, a bad thing... but who knows for sure???

Loneliness vs alone

what's loneliness??? What's alone?! what's the diff??? Any diff?!



OF COS! loneliness is a state of mind whereby one feels lonely, empty inside. The person can be with a whole bunch of pple having lots of fun, yet still feels lonely..


but being alone is in the reality, one person by him or herself...


recently too many things happened around me... i started questioning myself am i lonely?! Silly question right? haha... when too many things happen simultaneously around you, you will be like me... thinking weird questions...


i got my conclusion... i'm not lonely! haha... really?! I got someone who loves me so dearly that will never let me be alone... constantly i've a troup of invisible guardians fighting the war with me...


but i need time to be alone... too many issues, too many things happening... i need a time to be alone, to settle all my emotional ups & downs... just time to pamper myself!


but do not worry abt me... i'm not on the verge of any depression... thank God for tt... but just sometimes moments to be alone, to put away everything, to leave the phone off, temporarily out of reach seems quite a refreshing thing to do isn't it??? hmmm... perhaps i should give it a try some day...

communication

communication is the KEY to successful relationships.



communication is an ART to master
it is not just talking.
talking =x= communicating



what's the art of communication?? i really dunno... very much do i want to have proper communication, but somehow it doesn't work... why??? how???


I'm tired of guessing... very tired...



I think i need a break... a time to be away, to be alone... a time where i can just put down all my burdens, my worries... just do nothing, see & hear nothing... can i??

COOL!!!

Who says church must be dull and boring?!!!


God is not a dull and boring God... looks at the world around you, what is not created by Him???


For the past 2 days, I've been to the EMERGE Conference, truly in my heart, I know that church can be a FUN place to be in... a totally cool and fun place, yet strong presence of God!!


I've been supporting my ministry for this emerge conference... first time i'm helping in emerge actually... haha... very FUN and High stress... maciam going to a war like tt... you should come to the back before svc if you can to see how we work... pple concentrating on their laptops, pple running in & out... haha... but it is definitely fulfilling when you see the work you've done nicely on the LED...


If you missed last nite's emerge... i'm so sorry, cos the theme last nite was "CELEBRITY NIGHT"! haha... got guest appearance by Taufik, Kelly & Jun Yang!!!! Can you imagine that?! Celebrities coming to church and perform?! Wow... how cool is tat!! (p/s: for the 1st time, I was stunned when Taufik sang... hahaha... wow... he can really sing man!!!!)


But i think the funniest part was the arm westling competition (semi-finals)! hahha... arm westling on stage?! Who can imagine this in CHURCH?! YES... it happened!! Best of all, our 2 pastors joined in the fun too... For that moment, you can literally see the church going "wild"!!! hahaha... i tell u... those very religious pple will faint when they see us last nite"! haha!!!


But the highlights are really not this... but it was the strong presence of God, i tell you... Pastor didn't preach a very long sermon last nite... but the presence of God... even when i was at the back, I can feel it man!!!!


This emerge truly broke all my thinking abt how a church should be... hey friends, really do make time to come, Pastor had a series of preaching which will blow your mind... trust me... if you reading mine now... COME TONITE... Awesome message!!! Must hear!!!

Ideal?

Everyone has a different idea of what is "idealness"


Have you heard of pple who says "how i wish i have a more ideal 'blah-blah'"?!


What is really IDEAL??


my question today is what's a IDEAL family?! Is there an ideal family???


When i was young, i used to envy my classmates and their families... I will asked and pray secretly that "how i wished i'm borned there"?! Frankly, to me then, the family i saw was the ideal family... but does an ideal family really exist???


Due to the recent episodes of unfortunate events that happened in my life... i've started asking "funny" questions which i never bother abt in the past...


Something unpleasant happened @ home lately... my carelessness caused some sourness in the family... thou' i deeply regret it, i was really given the chance to even explain myself... every day i drifted in & out of the house!! (haha... maciam ghost!)


a conclusion i got today... there is no perfect family... every household has its problems... but a real family is one that holds and sticks together no matter what happens.. is your family like that?!